The ungiving world screams at me from below
to jump at the slightest instance of pain or failure
Left and right my demons walk past without a second glance
As they go by, each leaves a whisper in my ear
to spin and spit at me
telling me that I'm not getting there
Now as before, so many times, I'll look for an answer elsewhere,
seeing as this world is falling apart and me along with it
It's quite amazing to see such light in our never ending time of darkness
Why look to the sky when you're so close to my heart?
Around my neck or in my eyes you never leave me alone
It seems that here, promises are void before conception
But your wo
Your real name: Stevie
Age: 14
Height: 5'6"?
Natural hair colour: Dark brown
Eye colour: blue/grey/green
Skin color: WHITE
Glasses/contacts?: not right now...but i need them.
Piercings: ears 2x *oooooooh*
Tattoos: none yet
Braces: yes
Mannerisms: odd
Other distinctive markings: brightass red hair
FAVOURITE
Colour: purple
Band: Blindside
Video game: Crash Bandicoot 2 Vortex Strikes Back
Movie: The Nightmare Before Christmas
Book: Among The Shadows
Food: Calamari
Game on a cell phone: I don't remember what its called
CD: The Used - The Used
Flower: Pink Rose
Scent: Tommy <3
Animal: my tarantula
Comic book: something f
If I was a profession I'd be: auto/aviation mechanicalism
If I was a country I'd be: Israel
If I was a ocean or body of water I'd be: the Pacific! Good waves and hot guys all over you...
If I was a piece of candy I'd be: a truffle <3
If I was a famous building or piece of architecture I'd be: my house
If I was a store I'd be: a thrift store
If I was a brand of shoe I'd be: Stevie's (ugly but shares my name) or Converse (self explanatory)
If I was a bad habit I'd be: knuckle popping...or laughing at the most inconvenient of times
If I was a swear word I'd be: fuck
If I was a ice cream flavor I'd be: strawberry cheescake
If I was a
FIRSTS
First best friend: Diedre Flemming
First car: haven't gotten that yet
First date: um...i dunno if i've gotten that either
First real kiss: Oh no let's not even go there...
First screen name: Raider91X or something like that...really corny
First self purchased CD: Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory
First pets: Dog?
First piercing/tattoo: piercing, ears, no tattoos YET
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Tracy Chapman or Bonnie Raitt
LASTS
Last cigarette: forever ago it was gross *shudder*
Last car ride: today to orlando
Last kiss: hm at the mall LMAO
Last good cry: ish a week ago maybe
Last library book checked ou
When I'm bleeding through
I'd rather be bleeding you.
We'll be here the rest of our
life
times
in which we will write lines and verses
a hoax chorus that chokes us all dry
the glint of their spit
on our promised land
will blind you to tears
hear the screams?
feel the dreams that seem to be
your living, breathing, macabre reality
so stark and cold
I shivered as I was delivered from myself
we have no say in this world
will you follow in my
foot
steps
so dark dead dreary
I tripped on the words fallen
from your dropped jaw
a sacrosanct pact with yourself
was never
never enough...
can you deal
feel
Only when I see you in eternity
will you know this feeling in me.
When I see your hands
and cry out in joy for loving you,
I shall kiss your feet
when I, in awe, fall to my knees.
You are The One, my only,
there wasn't, isn't, won't be
any before you.
Only when we sing in eternity
will we really know of
this thing called Love.
Standing in front of me
The light shining through thee
My tears fell for you
I held your face pleading
hearts were bleeding
Eternity fell from the sky
I wiped your eyes
asked you to believe
you pulled away from my reach
saying I had been decieved
if you had turned around you would have seen
glory at your feet
peace within your reach
I hate to leave you burning
Living in eternity
Without you there
When I thought you would be with me forever
I wish I would be able to see you again
But you wouldn't believe and He has come
The Lord of Lords, the only one
You were left behind when you chose to be so blind.
He looks through me
Because he sees her
She's so much better
She'll make him happy
Give him what he needs
I could never do that
I'll just stand back and watch
Watch them grow, in my lonely corner
I'll sit and wish I were her
Wish I could have what she has
But I guess it's not so bad
Being alone…
The flower that i gave
not as good as your bouquet
All the lyrics that i wrote
not as good as the words you spoke
starlight over my own town
ain't as bright as the star i found
every drawing that i drew
was never ever good as you
serious as a heart attack
looking my almanac
i've gotta find out all the things
find out where she got her angel wings
shimmy shimmy quarter turn
feels like i will never learn
how will i ever learn
would you meet me any time
Darling darling im not kidding
night time is so pretty
with all the stars above your eyes
making out and making time
they should keep us far apart
drop the beating to the ch
She wishes she felt love cause she's never felt it before
She wants to know what its like to be wanted
But all the accusations keep her from feeling
She knows they want her to cry, to feel alone
And she does, but no one knows
He broke her and hurt her
He deserted her, left her for dead
And she remembers
He ran from her cause she wasn't good enough
Then he came back with a vengeance
Because she was wrong all this time
She did nothing right
And because of him
She'll die tonight
i thought about the world today,
i thought about how it made me hate,
then i thought more, and i thought about you,
and how you were part of the world i once knew,
a world that hated me and said it to my face,
a world that didn't know how to appreciate
any love and caring and kindness, but you,
you were different,
you healed the pain i felt,
you were there when no one else
was and i thank you for being a friend,
i want you to know i'm sorry and
i'll LOVE you 'til the end.
-by me, to Jonny Nolan
She's feeling nothing short of worthless
With a knife in her back
She needs to find a purpose
From the cross around her neck
So she gets down on her knees
And she prays to a God she can't see
She looks to the sky for an answer
But only silence surrounds her
So she cries out to her God
"why can't I feel love!?"
and then the answer comes:
"you can only feel the love you give
to others throughout this life you live
if you love others, they'll love you too
so there's really only one thing you can do;
love those around you unconditionally
and by listening to them, you'll be listening to me
you'll find an answer deep inside
and y
and if i dont make it
know that ive always loved you
like a sunny day we'll never get to see
cause were all dumb and jaded
i just pray to God i can figure out whats wrong
if i dont make it...
-Our Lady Peace
a very good friend of mine once said: *plucks out pubic hair* here..a gift from me to you. as a token of my esteem. (love you Jonni!!) =)
Mo: "come Vie, we must go and fight off the hairy gorilla boys!"
Me: "let me get right on that."
Mo: "you get his left testicle, I'll get his right"
Me: "yay, this will be intriguing..."
Mo: "You can see them all running around in the vast doctors offices slapping each others bum. An
Nothing Short of Tomorrow by darkarchangel, literature
Literature
Nothing Short of Tomorrow
I want nothing less than the first time.
It's beautiful, the way you love me.
How you think I'm so enticing
and I can't get any better for you.
Every move I make is golden
and you cherish my soft breaths
as I lay next to you in our Wonderland.
You love the way my hair smells
and you think I look amazing
no matter what clothes I'm wearing.
I could be wearing YOUR clothes
with my hair a mess and mascara
running down my face and the first thing that you would say
would be that I'm so beautiful. And mean it.
You make me everything I am.
You're nothing short of every single part of me,
and I love you more than words can describe.
My palms sting from letting go of you
It tore the skin from my hands
Because I clung to you so tightly
I didn't want to let you go...
I'm dieing here, falling apart
I'm withering away
Almost nothing now without you
My skin is stretched over my bones
There's nothing left of me
I just give it up every time
Every time...I let go of you
Over and over again I'm letting go
It replays constantly in me
But I'll always carry you with me
In my heart, you're contained in my soul
I loved you once and I'll love you forever
Although I must let go.
So I'm burning the notes and my tears
are falling on the words
you could never bring yours
Never forget it.
I'll never admit it...
We linger among the shadows cast by the piles of lies
and misunderstandings we've collected over time.
Hopeless.
I stand here, physically nothing, yet mentally everything
to you, to them. They love me because they just don't know.
How did I make this happen? How dare I? How could I?
Perfect.
If everything was like what we have in each other
would I be like this right now? Would I feel so damned inferior?
I throw myself down just for you to pick me up.
Repugnant.
Brush away the covers and masks and disguises we call home.
Nothing was how it should be now.
We've noticed that it's difficult
Cross my heart. by xused-cut-up-angelx, literature
Literature
Cross my heart.
I promise that I'll love you.
I promise that I'll care.
I promise that I'd stop this shit,
if only you were here.
I'd promise I will be okay
but that would be a lie.
The only thing that I can promise
is that I'll love you 'til I die.
Current Residence: Florida. Favourite genre of music: Screamo, Christian Metal and Secular Metal, R.I.P. Dimebag. Operating System: Windows 2000 Professional I think. MP3 player of choice: Never had one... Shell of choice: Shells (shellfish) are against my religion! So's pork. Favourite cartoon character: Felix the Cat. Personal Quote: Me + You = Supermodel Kids.
Favourite Visual Artist
ArmSock666 and Tim Burton.
Favourite Movies
The Nightmare Before Christmas.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
underOATH, Dead Poetic, Big Daddy Weave, Blindside, AS I LAY DYING!!!
Favourite Writers
Still trying to figure that one out.
Favourite Games
Minds.
Tools of the Trade
Bible, trapset, and my mind. It's brilliant, you see...
haven't been on in a long time... just updating i guess. Jordan and i broke up and i hate it.
school rocks.
i'm in a band again (go figure)
i'll write again later
i dont like Tommy what are you talking about. I'm dating Jordan now! i'm like 10 000 times happy for me. how exciting! i'm going to see the corpse bride tomorrow with him. should be fun. maybe boomer will be there tee hee. so anywho i super duper need to find something to inspire me to write again. i have no muse! i haven't drawn or written or anything! how sad. i haven't done anything on here in the longest time, not like anyone cares though, but you catch my drift i'm sure. well i dont know what else to say and i have 4 tons of homework to do, some French to study and a little neurology to read up on. bailing
*dark
hullo there! i love your gallery :] keep it up!
by the way, your signature says to ask you about Jesus Christ, so i'm asking. how are you so sure? [i'm attempting to strengthen my faith, so i would love to hear your input]
hey i know you commented me in May or something, but i just now got to use dA again. hopefully you're still on here. i am sure because i have blind faith. its being able to trust in something that you cant see. like, when you sit in a chair in a room, then you get up and walk out of that room...you still believe the chair is there, right? even though you cant see it. knowing that Jesus lives and God is alive is based on faith, your belief that there was something bigger and greater than you that created you and makes you who and what you are. maybe this helps?
STEVIE! ahhhh! I'm going to Umatilla high school and this time it's for certain.. i'm moving next weekend.. I haven't seen you in forever and I can't wait to! xoxo